On 23nd sept.. u came into my dream, evrything was so unexpected, evrything so real...
it was a class gathering and u were there. i did not ask how u got there, neither did i question u why u are ther. i juz knew that u'd come and i am glad abt it.
that time, i 'clinged' on you like nv b4, keep following u wherever u go, realising that i might not have the chance to do so, except rite there in my dream. it was then i finally have the chance to take back wad i've lost..
you told me that u're allowed to come out 4 times a wk & i'm glad for u... feel that u're free to do wad u did not have... you said that your life there is gd... and me... gave u a very silly yet cute reply," dang ran lo, ni de ren ze me hao, suo yi qu tian tang, dang ran hao lo." haha...
you tried to tell me ur contact no when we went shopping tgt. you show me that device, sth which looks like a pager, sth which looks like a phone... or even calculator... not sure, but there were chinese characters on it... i cldnt figure out the numbers... though managed to caught a few, but u juz swept it too fast....
then there were this bitchy person... haha.. that's wad u said abt her.. who wanted to complain about u giving me ur contact no... she belongs to one of u too... hmm... & soon, you gotta leave le.. you juz got up the bus and left..
did you come to say gd bye? your departure in my dream is it an indication that you wanna draw the lines btw us? i hope not, cos i'll nv forget you. though time may juz subside all the pain that was created, i'll nv forget you...
i am hurt... it's like my heart tearing apart. it's been a long time, but i thought you shld know that i still feel terrible about that incident, and for blaming you for not attending trngs.. always wanted to know why u had chosen that path n not coming to me to seek help.. arent we best frens? maybe not after i had kinda betrayed ur trust, but if i hadnt been blinded by some others... i'd hav nv done that ever again... wanted to blame u for leaving, but i juz cant bring myself to do that...
but... i'll always know that you r there for me like a guardian angel.. you will always have a place in my heart, fear not... it will be hidden rite inside but will nv be gone. it wun be brought out cos it'll be too hurtful to do that.. i'll juz nv forget you... i miss u.. miss the gd old days we had had... it's a pity that i nv treasure enough... no matter how far u may be, pls take gd care of urself... n stay happy... =)