so long din post anyth le...

think recently i am suffering from a crisis... hmm...
i just lost one tuition job n i am so upset... always get that kinda feeling when i stop working... hmm... like lost my sense of direction... hmph! hate it hate it hate it... but cant do anyth abt it.. dun like it at all....

wanna go to the land of oz... to find wad i've lost... to think... back then, i was so full of confidence... always seem to be in the limelight, centre of attention... now... just feel so desperate for attention... silently hoping that i'll be seen by at least someone... but.. even though jd may see me... its just different kind of feeling... like... he is the ONLY one that cares... if he is... (opps! haha)

had the worst birthday ever this year... the simplest celebration ever... not at all me, not the typical me that would inform everyone that it's her birthday a month b4 that day.. not that typical me that would share lotsa of my tots... its now the meizhu that keep things to herself fearing she might say sth wrong, hurt someone, anger someone... guess i have change a lot... prob that's y have no confidence, and maybe that's y no one cares anymore...

the tot of me being NOT IMPORTANT anymore just make me feel so... UNWANTED... now become more insecure... not sure when i will be not important to another person again... now needs more assurance... this is just so irritating! and its making me so paranoid... so not cute of me at all! n i hate it hate it hate it... but i just cant do anyth to take that paranoid me away(!) which irritates me the most... prob cos i am TOO LEO... so... if u think that i am impt... dun hesitate to let me know... it'll brighten up my day... :) chase the gloomy clouds away... bring me the sunshine... get me the rainbow...


argh... but since i am so not important... who will see this post even... =x

so long din post anyth le...

think recently i am suffering from a crisis... hmm...
i just lost one tuition job n i am so upset... always get that kinda feeling when i stop working... hmm... like lost my sense of direction... hmph! hate it hate it hate it... but cant do anyth abt it.. dun like it at all....

wanna go to the land of oz... to find wad i've lost... to think... back then, i was so full of confidence... always seem to be in the limelight, centre of attention... now... just feel so desperate for attention... silently hoping that i'll be seen by at least someone... but.. even though jd may see me... its just different kind of feeling... like... he is the ONLY one that cares... if he is... (opps! haha)

had the worst birthday ever this year... the simplest celebration ever... not at all me, not the typical me that would inform everyone that it's her birthday a month b4 that day.. not that typical me that would share lotsa of my tots... its now the meizhu that keep things to herself fearing she might say sth wrong, hurt someone, anger someone... guess i have change a lot... prob that's y have no confidence, and maybe that's y no one cares anymore...

the tot of me being NOT IMPORTANT anymore just make me feel so... UNWANTED... now become more insecure... not sure when i will be not important to another person again... now needs more assurance... this is just so irritating! and its making me so paranoid... so not cute of me at all! n i hate it hate it hate it... but i just cant do anyth to take that paranoid me away(!) which irritates me the most... prob cos i am TOO LEO... so... if u think that i am impt... dun hesitate to let me know... it'll brighten up my day... :) chase the gloomy clouds away... bring me the sunshine... get me the rainbow...


argh... but since i am so not important... who will see this post even... =x